The End.

Too much has happened.
I don’t think I will write in here anymore.
If you want to keep up with me, go here.
Good bye.

-Heather C.

Early Birthday

Okay. My six-day-early 18th birthday party. I’ll make this into a bulleted list, from most important to least. It will just be easier.

• Sadie: It is official. Sadie (my dear, dear sister ten years my senior) and her boyfriend Nick are through. I won’t go into specifics, but Sadie put it this way: Nick was one step above Troy, who was the scum of the earth (couldn’t hold a job, smoked pot, had a fifth-grade education), but was five steps below Aaron.

To refresh you all, Aaron was the perfect man for Sadie. Save for the fact that he didn’t want to get married or have children, which was the reason they split. But, Sadie informed us all today, that after Tony and Leah’s wedding last August, Sadie and Aaron walked around midtown Marinette for seven hours. During that time, Aaron told Sadie that since she left, he realized just how hard it was to live without her. But, another part of him knew that he may never be able to love her again, due to the fact they just grew apart once Sadie realized that Aaron would never provide her with the things she wanted most: A husband and children. But, the clincher is this: Now that he has grown up and realized that Sadie was the most amazing thing that could have ever happened to him, he wants those things that one year ago forced Sadie to leave out of desperation. He wants to get married and have children.

Recently, Sadie and Aaron talked, and Sadie told Aaron about Nick. How he broke her heart. Aaron understood and told Sadie that he, too, had much heartbreak this summer. I would love nothing more than for Sadie and Aaron to get back together. They were just… perfect. You know that cheesy saying, “You complete me”? That is true for Sadie and Aaron. They could have intellectual conversations. With Nick, there was nothing. Sadie and Aaron had everything in common — and I mean everything. Videogames, politics, religion, morals. Every. Thing. Sadie and Nick? Nothing. He loves cars and speakers. There was just nothing there. And I guess it doesn’t help matters that he was a slob, was broke (though a hard worker), and mooched money off Sadie constantly. I will give him one thing: He was a good father. (He has two sons (Raymond and Dawson) from two different women, but he raises them better than those hos ever could.)

Which brings me to my next point. Sadie is taking leaving Raymond and Dawson harder than leaving Nick. Those little boys were so cute, so sweet, and Dawson just started to say Sadie’s name… I just cannot even begin to understand how much it must hurt to never see those little guys ever again. Sadie even told us, “Sure. I’m going to cry a lot over Nick. I did love him. But, when Aaron and I broke up, I could feel my heart beating inside my head because I cried so hard for him. My heart was completely broken after him. I even had him feel my chest and he said, ‘Oh my god…’”

I know she is going to miss Nick, excluding everything he put her through, but she will miss Raymond and Dawson so much more. Sadie is such an amazing, caring, loving woman. She deserves someone that will love her. Above everything, someone that will love her. Aaron was that man, once. I can only hope that he will rescue her. I know she still loves him. We all grew to love, and now miss, Aaron. Tonight, during the bon fire, Sadie was looking at old pictures on her phone, and out of nowhere she said, “Now that is a handsome man…” and held up a picture of Aaron. And boy was he! Go here and look at the diarist’s display picture. That is almost exactly what Aaron looks like. And he was intelligent, and funny — sometimes an ass, but that’s expected of everyone, sometimes — and, above all, he loved our Sadie.

She still loves him. Just the way she talks about him. In her voice I hear a mix of admiration and sadness. It would be the most amazing thing, if they could find each other again. Sadie is moving to Green Bay in the spring (her and Nick were in the process of moving out of their apartment and moving into his parent’s house (a complete mess, from what I hear) to lower their cost of living; Well, now Sadie has nowhere to live; But, on her day’s off she will be living here, with Mom and Dad, and on work days she will live with Eric; It’s not much, but it’s something) to another job, but if Aaron gets up his nerve, maybe… Just, maybe…

• Presents: Okay, onto a more happy thread!

Shawn and Sarah (the oldest brother and sister-in-law): $20
Eric and Margie (the younger brother and girlfriend): $25
Sadie: Evolution by Korn and a kick-ass Napoleon Dynamite music card!

Sadie/Mom and Dad: This:

It’s an FM Transmitter. I plug the Transmitter into the headphone slot on my iPod/CD player, and the-thing-that-goes-into-the-lighter-slot-in-my-car plugs into the Transmitter. Now, I plug all of this into the lighter slot, chose a blank station, input the station into the Transmitter, and viola! Music off my iPod/CD player. See, even though my car is a 1997 Ford Escort LX, it doesn’t have a CD player. Or even a tape player for that matter. But, I digress.

Also, Sarah gave me her copy of Zeitgeist (it is completely scratched on the back though; I’m anxious to find out if it’s even playable).

For keeps, baby!

And Sadie gave me her copy of Minutes to Midnight to burn myself a copy.

Sadie and I talked about how much we want to go the Projekt Revolution tour again. We went in 2004, when Linkin Park, Korn, The Used, and Less than Jake headlined. This year it is LP again (of course… it’s their tour), HIM, and *collective gasp* Coheed and Cambria! I would love to go, but I just don’t have the time, nor the money. But…

Yay for moozik! This pretty much puts me it this kind of mood:

Regardless of what you think of me based on this lil’ diary o’ mine, I do like to rock it like a hurricane.

Considering everything that has been going on, with tuition and now Sadie, I just can’t help but think positive. If my thoughts even begin to head into the negative area of my brain, I just — stop. I’m at a huge transitional period in my life where I can’t be focusing on the bads, as crappy/cheesy as that may sound. I just need to think, “Sadie will find someone to make her as happy as she deserves” and, “I will get my tuition squared away.” I just can’t help it. I have to believe that everything will turn out for the better, eventually.

• Katelynn: My niece, who is twelve, by the way, has a cell phone. The hell? She’s 12. One, two. Two years over a decade. How self important is her life, at this point in time, that she needs a damn cell phone. Me, I’m going off the college in four, almost three (oh.. shit…) days and I am only getting a TracPhone just in case of emergency. Seriously. If my car breaks down, or something happens. If I need to call someone for a prolonged period of time, I will use my room phone.

But, come on! It’s just… *sighs* She’s not my daughter, but seriously… Anyway. For the bonfire we had tonight, Mom invited over Cruz, our neighbor’s youngest kid. He’s cute, for a twelve year old, I guess. But, oh my. Katelynn and her friend (Bree; she invited her over for the festivities) had to change their clothes and put on make up to look — appropriate — for Cruz. *rolls eyes* It was so funny! And, I will admit, it was actually pretty damn cute, too.

But, Cruz must have brought over some air-pellet guns to play with while the kids were around/in the pool, and one of the pellets hit Katie’s cell phone and cracked the ‘window,’ or whatever you call it. Can you guess what happens next? Tears, tears, and — oh, yeah! — more tears. Mkay. First of all, why would you bring your two-day-old cell phone to your Grandma’s for a birthday party? Second off all, why would you have it so near a pool, i.e., a large, foreboding, body of water that could potentially ruin an electronic item? And third, well. I don’t have a third point. But, Eric, her dad, my brother, is going to buy her a new one. It’s only $30, but, still! I did hear him say, though, that if she breaks/ruins her cell again, she’s paying for it. Ha!

Now, don’t get me wrong, I remember all those years ago when I was twelve. The “big” thing I wanted was a — you guessed it — stereo. Hardly what I would call portable. Now, though, when I am seventeen, I have, own, and love, and iPod. But I take care of it. Too well, some may say, and I have it in a protective case, just in case. Also, I love my niece, but damn! When she was around Cruz, she turned into a little bitch! If you even as much as dared to ask her a question she would roll her eyes and answer you in a Valley Girl voice.

*sighs* I know she will grow out of it. She has Margie, Sadie, Sara, and myself to look up to. In my opinion, we are the exact opposites of the Parises and Nicholes of the world.

Smart, feminist, vaginas of the world, unite! *thrusts fist into the air*

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Okay. Me thinks this is enough for this entry. ‘Tis getting pretty long. I would just like to add that my cake, i.e., “blonde brownies,” was pretty damn good. They didn’t taste so much like a brownie, as a chocolate-chip cookie. But C-CCs are pretty damn good, too!Ugh. I feel sick. I had about six pieces of pizza, and four brownies. I need to listen to some Korn, Smashing Pumpkins, and Linkin Park, simultaneously. And I also need to burn my Sadie a copy of Pink’s new album (courtesy of Sara; it is so scratched on the back). I’m not a big fan of Pink, but while out behind the garage today for the bonfire, we listened to “Dear Mr. President.” And I must say, *stands up and applauds* Bravo! Exactly.

In fact, I think I may just burn myself a copy, too.

Ookay, off to burning I go! *turns up some Korn and bobs along to the music*

FYI: Did you know that out in the country not far from my house, there is a Korn Rd.? I’ll ask mom the directions tomorrow and I’ll try to navigate my way there and take a picture of the sign. How fucking cool is that? Very. That’s how.

I’m off!

101 in 1001

On Tuesday August 14, I started what many know as 101 in 1001. Please click the link if you want to start your own list, or if you just want to find out more.

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The Mission:
Complete 101 preset tasks in a period of 1001 days.The Criteria:
Tasks must be specific (i.e. no ambiguity in the wording) with a result that is either measurable or clearly defined. Tasks must also be realistic and stretching (i.e. represent some amount of work on my part).

Why 1001 Days?
Many people have created lists in the past – frequently simple goals such as New Year’s resolutions. The key to beating procrastination is to set a deadline that is realistic. 1001 Days (about 2.75 years) is a better period of time than a year, because it allows you several seasons to complete the tasks, which is better for organizing and timing some tasks such as overseas trips or outdoor activities.

Some common goal setting tips:
1. Be decisive. Know exactly what you want, why you want it, and how you plan to achieve it.
2. Stay Focused. Any goal requires sustained focus from beginning to end. Constantly evaluate your progress.
3. Welcome Failure. Frequently, very little is learned from a venture that did not experience failure in some form. Failure presents the opportunity to learn and makes the success more worthy.
4. Write down your goals. It clarifies your thinking and reinforces your commitment.
5. Keep your goals in sight. Review them frequently, and ensure that they are always at the forefront of your thinking.

Start: Tuesday August 14, 2007
Finish: Tuesday May 11, 2010

Strikethrough = Finished
Italics = in progress
Bold = Comments

1. Read A Clockwork Orange.
2. Buy a nice camera of my own, with my own money.
3. Move to Marquette.
4. Get a job.
5. Watch and buy every season of Doctor Who.
6. Eat, or at least try, real lobster.
7. Get a vampire-bite tattoo.
8. Buy all of Eddie Izzard’s stand up specials.
9. Learn to play piano/keyboard.
10. Get a labret.
11. Visit an art museum.
12. Buy an item of clothing from a vintage clothing store or thrift shop.
13. Lose 75 lbs.
14. Do some sort of exercise every day.
15. Eat less carbs; one slice of bread a day and that’s it.
16. Eat at least three different fruits a day.
17. Send a secret to PostSecret.
18. Sell/give away any clothes and shoes not worn in the past year.
19. Have a professional bra-fitting.
20. Dress as Alex DeLarge for Halloween.
21. Wear less makeup.
22. And be comfortable about it.
23. Get a very short hair cut.
24. Buy a pair of square-rimmed glasses.
25. Drink more water (at least three full glasses a day).
26. Give someone I don’t know/wouldn’t normally talk to a compliment.
27. Buy or receive a cell phone.
28. Wear something other than band tees and jeans on a daily basis.
29. Get an internship at a local hospital.
30. Overcome my fear of talking on the phone.
31. Watch the news at least three times a week.
32. Make finishing my assignments my first priority.
33. Run a mile without stopping.
34. Floss every day.
35. Brush my teeth twice a day, every day.
36. Participate in NaNoWriMo.
37. Go on a hike.
38. Participate in a run/walk for charity.
39. Make my bed every morning for — ever.
40. Do not be afraid to do anything on this list.
41. Procrastinate less.
42. Don’t watch TV instead of doing chores/homework.
43. Read Slaughter House V.
44. Buy a manga book and read it cover-to-cover.
45. Take a yoga class.
46. Stop biting my lips.
47. Go to a real play.
48. Frame my painting.
49. Frame the Art Club group photo in Times Square.
50. Buy appliances and supplies for my dorm.
51. Give blood as often as I can.
52. Get a matching tattoo with someone close to me.
53. Read A Tree Grows in Brooklyn.
54. Have mom teach me how to crochet.
55. Crochet myself a scarf and matching hat.
56. Write down one meaningful thought a day for three months.
57. Watch all of James Stewart’s films.
58. Buy a Tool poster.
59. Get a boyfriend.
60. Have my first kiss.
61. Write everyone important in my life a letter.
62. Give them the letters for Christmas.
63. Learn Italian.
64. Go to the Cinema more than once a year.
65. Walk or bike to class when the weather permits.
66. For every one task I complete on this list, I will think of something to take its place.
67. Make another 101 list after I finish this one.
68. Gain the Superior Edge:
69. Citizenship,
70. Diversity,
71. Leadership, and
72. Real World
73. Subscribe to Smithsonian magazine.
74. Buy a pair of high heels.
75. Vote for President.
76. Spend less time on the computer.
77. And more time outside.
78. Buy a shirt from dirtymicrobe.com.
79. Do the crossword in ink.
80. Shave my legs every other day for a month.
81. Drive somewhere alone. Completed: 8/16/07 (to the library)
82. Buy a random book I’ve never heard of, and would never read, and read it.
83. Wake up early enough to watch the sun rise.
84. Read 52 books in 52 weeks. (37/52 read)
85. Recycle.
86. Create a scrapbook to remember the 2006 NYC trip.
87. Read Wicked.
88. Put all my music on my laptop (in iTunes).
89. Listen to all my mixed-song CDs and list each song on each CD, so I remember.
90. Get eight hours of sleep a night for a whole month.
91. Not be afraid to talk to someone.
92. Swim in Lake Superior.
93. Join at least three clubs at NMU.
94. Talk to my future roommate. Completed: 8/16/07
95. Read something by Neil Gaiman. Completed: 8/16/07 -Endless Nights Special
96. Make a chart of my class schedules for every week.
97. Not be so judgmental of others.
98. Even if they like different music and books than I do.
99. Apply for as many scholarships and grants as I can.
100. No matter what happens, enjoy this new chapter of my life.
101. Finish every last task on this list by Tuesday May 11, 2010.

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I will not update this list here on OD. Instead, I have posted this list, and all updates, here. Whenever I finish a task, I will update there, so please, check it out about once a week. This is very important to me, and I hope anyone who reads this can understand that, and will support me throughout this new chapter of my life.The reason I chose a different blog than OD to host my list was this: I plan on having only one entry on my 101 blog, therefore it will be easier to find, update, and keep track of my progress.

Well, that’s all I have to say for today! I hope everyone that is capable of doing this does just that. Make the goals attainable, yet difficult. It is better to struggle to obtain your goals that to just pass through them. Like the introduction said, “Failure presents the opportunity to learn and makes the success more worthy.”

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Now, I am off to eat my birthday dinner — shrimp! I know my birthday isn’t until next Saturday (one week!), but my parents wanted to give me a more intimate birthday dinner. Dad’s boiling the shrimp as I speak write. Tomorrow we are having my family over to celebrate my niece (Katie)’s 12th birthday and mine in one day. The plan is to have a pizza party, and even try to cook some pizzas on the grill. Yumm! My cake and my niece’s won’t actually be cakes. They will be more of like… brownies.About five years ago my mom told me about blonde brownies, or white chocolate brownies. The recipe in the link is a bit different that the one my mom has, instead of chocolate chips, she is using white chocolate chips. I hope the “cake” turns out good!

Well, I’m going to go eat some shrimp now!

Breakthroughs

 I had quite a few breakthroughs today!

1. I talked on the phone, probably more than I have ever in my life.
a. I talked to Scott, my financial advisor, about a loan I applied for.
b. I talked to mom, who was up the road babysitting Tate and Tanner (my nephews), to find out if the local library had a fax machine I could use to send the loan application.
c. Jacqueline called and I talked to her! We didn’t really get to discuss much, but she is bringing a chair for us to use, and I’m bringing the TV. She had to call me from her work because her home phone isn’t working. But, she has my e-mail, and she said she’ll send me an e-mail soon.

 All that talking on the phone (which, I understand, seems completely normal to some of you) made me feel less… scared about it. I think I could pick up the phone right now and call someone and not feel as nervous as I did before. Also, I’m glad that I got to talk to Jackie (she seems very nice!), but I suppose we can talk about who’s bringing what later, too.

2. I drove, for the first time, all by myself.

 I had to drive to the local library to fax over the loan application. It was pretty damn exciting, being in the car all by myself. It was sort of… empowering.

3. I went into an establishment (the library) all by myself.

 I’ve never went into anywhere, except my school, alone. So this is quite an accomplishment for myself!

 About the loan, though. I owe $2,741.26 per semester for the 2007/2008 school year. Yikes, I know. But that’s what the loan is for.

 Lucy, the head of the Clinical Sciences Department, sent me three e-mails that detailed the changes in my CLS 100, 109, and 190 lecture/labs. I need to look at my scheduled classes; make a chart for each week; and put the location, class, and time into a chart before I leave. That shouldn’t be too hard… right?

 I’m almost completely packed. I have most of my clothes, save for what I’m wearing right now and what’s in the laundry, packed. Now I just need to bring my radio, TV, and note to self: ask Jacqueline about a DVD player and a phone.

 Grandma (on Mom’s side) came over today and brought some homemade salsa. It was sooo good! It had jalapenos, tomato, onion, lime juice, and cilantro. Yumm! :]

 Mom, Tate, Tanner, and I went swimming, so I’m pretty beat.

 And that’s my little update for today!
 Short, I know. But watcha gonna do?

New Roommate [edit]

 I got an e-mail today from the housing department at Northern. As it turns out, my roommate has been changed from Rochelle S. to Jacqueline T.

 The change was due to my roommate requirements, which were:

1. Neat
2. Quiet
3. Non-smoker
4. Non-drinker

 I did a quick facebook search, and only two results came back. One girl’s last name didn’t match my soon-to-be roommate’s, and the other girl is graduating a year before me, and looks like the exact opposite of someone I would talk to. Now, I know looks aren’t everything, but the girl’s display picture… it just screamed “Attention Whore!!!11!one”

 I just hope we get along, regardless of who this girl is (you’d think they would room Freshmen together, not a Sophomore and a Freshman, right?), or what she looks like.

 I’m just glad I was holding out on calling Rochelle until Tomorrow! If I called her say… last week, well. That would have been awkward…

 But anyway. I might call Jacqueline (I’ll refer to her from now on as Jackie) Friday, instead. Mom and Dad are going to Green Bay, will be gone all day, and since the area code of Jackie’s number places here in the Lower Peninsula (around Saginaw), it will be long distance and I don’t want Mom in my immediate vicinity to yell at me (I never use the phone, so she will — hopefully — let this slide just this once). Also, I would just feel more comfortable being in the house all by myself, not having to talk over Mom and Dad’s conversations, or the TV. I could also verbally talk my self into calling her.

 My next entry will explain why I’m taking this initiative to talk to her first.
I’ll just say: 101 in 1001.
Google it if you’re confused.
If you’re not confused, you’ll know just how much this means to me.

 Also, my mom picked up some empty boxes so I can start packing up my belongings. This has become all too real. Only eight days. That’s it. Eight days, and I’m gone. For nine months. I am fucking terrified.

[edit (8:30 p.m.)]
Rochelle just called. She sounded really nice! :] I know she’s not going to be my roommate, but she said that if we wanted to meet up whie at NMU, we could. That really speaks to her character. She also said that she wasn’t avoiding me, which was nice. She sounded nervous, which actually made me less nervous!

But, I’m shaking right now. That’s how terrified I am of talking on the phone.

Well, I just thought it important to write this down. She really does sound nice!

FYI: NMU switched her to a differnt Hall, that’s why she’s not my roommate anymore.

I am still going to call Jacqueline Friday, though. Wish me luck! :]

Time

I’m leaving in ten days.

Oh god.

The Meteor Shower

 The meteor shower was fantastic last night! I saw some good ones. All together I counted 72 meteors, which is pretty damn good for only sitting outside for an hour-and-a-half.

 I went out at 12:45 a.m. and went back inside to catch some Zs at 2:15 a.m. It was freezing outside! I could barely stand it! And I had “Cars” by Gary Numan stuck in my head. Though all I remember are the lyrics: “Here in my car/I feel safest of all/La la la la la la/La la la la la la/La c-ar” Which doesn’t lead to much fun running constantly through my head.

 I also had the Family Guy version of the song stuck in my head for a while, though: “Brian had sex/With a really dumb girl/Now he’s taking his friend/Stewie out for ice-cream/In his c-ar” I know. Completely random.

 Back to the meteor shower. Quite a few of the meteors were just faint streaks across the sky, and went too fast for me to really notice them, but I counted them anyway. About twenty, though, were fanfuckingtastic! They went fairly slow, spanned the length of my viewing area, and left red trails across the sky. It was amazing!

 I am very glad that I stayed up, as tired as I was, to watch this spectacle. Yesterday afternoon, Mom and I went for a three mile bike ride, then came home and played (hard, mind) in the pool for two hours. So I was pretty exhausted before the shower, but it was totally worth it.

 On September 1st there is supposed to be another meteor shower, I hear. I must find out more about that. I’ll be at Northern, so my viewing may be obscured due to living in the city, but I’ll try nonetheless.

 I wrote more on my OD, so if you want more randomness, read it.

Perseid Meteor Shower Tonight!

 I can barely contain my excitement as I write this entry! Tomorrow, at 1:00 a.m. (Monday, July 13), there will be a meteor shower.

 Taken from Yahoo News:

 ”Every August, just when many people go vacationing in the country where skies are dark, the best-known meteor shower makes its appearance.  The annual Perseid meteor shower is expected to be at its best this year, producing one or two meteors per minute during peak hours. ”It’s going to be a great show,” said Bill Cooke of NASA’s Meteoroid Environment Office at the Marshall Space Flight Center in Alabama.

 According to the best estimates, in 2007 the Earth is predicted to cut through the densest part of the Perseid stream sometime around 2 a.m. ET on Monday, Aug. 13. That corresponds to 11 p.m. PT on Aug. 12 for those living in the Western United States or Canada.

 The interval when the meteors will be falling at their highest rates will likely last several hours or more on either side of these times.

 As a result, it is the late-night hours Sunday, on through the first light of dawn Monday that holds the greatest promise of seeing a very fine Perseid display.

 The moon, whose bright light almost totally wrecked last year’s shower, will have zero impact this year. The moon will be new on Sunday, meaning that there will be no interference from it at all.

 Perfect!“

 I am so excited! I mean, I’m in Michigan, which is the Mid-West, but the shower should be visible here, right? *squee* The only other space anomolies I’ve witnessed were when I was five and there was a solar eclipse, and when I was 15 and saw my first lunar eclipse.

 There’s expected to be 1-2 meteors/minute… that calculates to, on average, 90 to 100 meteors an hour!

 I can’t wait! But I must… only two more hours.

 I’m going to have to bundle up in a sweater, socks, shoes, a blanket, make a cuppa, move a chair out into the front lawn ,turn on the outside lights to keep myself safe from animals, settle back, relax, and watch the show!

 I’ll write again tomorrow. Maybe.

I Couldn’t Resist

1. I’m bored.
2. It’s hot.
3. There’s nothing to do.

Blegh.

The Roommate

 About a week ago I received a letter from NMU about the hall I will be living in and who my room mate is going to be, hopefully. Turns out, I will be staying in Payne Hall — the hall I applied for! It’s quiet, and more appropriate for introverted studiers, like myself.

 I can move in to the hall (we haven’t been assigned room numbers yet) on the 23rd of this month. Eleven days from now… I can’t believe it. 11 days seems like such a short amount of time! I get nervous and anxious just thinking about it.

 The hall I’m happy about; the room mate… not so much. I’m sure she’s a great person (again: I hope), but I just can’t get up the nerve to call her. Her name is Rochelle S. and the letter than came from Northern gave her phone number.

 I’ve always had a strange fear of talking on the phone, but the thought of having to converse with a complete stranger, one who I will be living with (hopefully) for the next nine months, completely exacerbates this irrational fear of mine. I received the letter on Tuesday, and I’m going to make myself call Rochelle on Thursday, at the latest.

 We have much to discuss! Who’s going to bring what, regarding a microwave, toaster, TV, etc. We have to lay down ground rules, and more importantly, get to know each other.

 I wrote about this in my OpenDiary, but I will reiterate it here:

What I Look for in a Roommate:

1. Respect my things and my space. If you want to listen to one of my CDs, read one of my books, or watch one of my movies, ask, and I will let you. If I want to use something of yours, I’ll ask.
2. If/when you do borrow my things, treat them with respect; I will, of course, do the same.
3. Don’t be a bathroom hog (this goes for my suitemates, as well). Again — respect.
4. If I’m in our room, studying, and you feel the need to party it up, first consider that my main priority of attending college is to further my education; if you need me to leave, I will, but just keep in mind that if you are bitchy about it, I’ll be bitchy right back.
5. Don’t be messy. I’m completely anal and suffer from minor OCD. All of my belongings have a place, and everything is in that place. I can’t think with clutter, just as I can’t think with loud noises going on. So, please be quite, too, while I’m working.
6. I don’t as for much. What it all comes down to is this; respect me, my ideas, my area, and my things, and I will respect you and yours in return.

 That’s not too much to ask for, right? I just hope she’s kind and accepting. Even though I’m not one of the most beautiful girls, or the skinniest (pretty far from it, in fact), or the most outgoing, I hope she sees that when she gets to know me — it takes a while to let someone in — that I am a good person.

 Oh, and I also hope she’s not completely superficial/wannabe-anything. As long as she’s genuine. No matter what music she likes, as long as she’s genuine, I’ll be happy.

 I’m not asking for much, really, when you get down to it.

 Well, I guess that’s all I have to say for now. I hope to soon overcome my fear of talking on the phone. When I think about it, she’s probably just as terrified of meeting me and talking to me as I am to meet her and talk to her. Hopefully.